melancholy evening reading books in the fading sunlight. blissful night, drunkenly sitting on rooftops, swaying & staring at a sea of glittering lights reflected in dark bay waters. surprising morning, listening to confessions in the lobby. Camping for the weekend. Goodbye civilization, hello friends and reading assignments.
Handouts and crowded classrooms. Trekking uphill with a laptop at my side. Small seats and even smaller desks. Making my way through crowded halls and running away from flyers. Silence. The clicking of keys on keyboards, and the neverending rustle of paper. The cringe inducing, hair-raising sound of chalk journeying across vast planes of chalkboard. School’s started.
note to self. →
I can relate
crushes: B, There are a few things you should know about me: I’m injury prone I hardly ever say the right thing I laugh way too much I’m in love with you The end… — L
fresh, bay air
I’ve left the land of smog and sun and bright city lights, and have moved back to the land of fog and clouds and mom&pop shops. I forgot how different it is here… Wide city sidewalks are lost beneath scratched wooden tables piled high with handmade crafts and jewelry. Silence is split by the neverending yells of street vendors, passing cars, and screaming college students. In the...
The worst loneliness is to not be comfortable with yourself.– Mark Twain (via psychotherapy)
What did you hope to accomplish? Did you think that I would respect or appreciate you after what you did? Did you think it would make me regret my decision, and would encourage me to continue spending time with you? Honestly, that was just petty and rude. I’m not even all that angry, because it was just so…childish. It’s like being angry at a toddler; such a waste of time. A...
When I close my eyes to sleep at night, words and images flit across my mind. Brilliant new worlds and fantastic characters going on adventures, their fates are still unknown, but I’m so excited to know what will happen next.
My dad is home for the first time in over 48 hours. I’m glad that he finally gets to sleep on his own bed for a few hours before going back to work, instead of sleeping for less than an hour in his office because he has to prepare for three morning caterings. I don’t care how sore and tired I am from working these past two days. I know that my dad feels a thousand times worse; if I...
Like a poem.
Believe. A frustrated post.
How do you expect me to respect you, when you have no respect for yourself? I am so frustrated with how you are constantly putting yourself down. The way that you glance in the mirror and find only flaws - how you talk about a seemingly endless list of surgery in order to achieve what you believe is “perfection”. The way you stress and obsess about imperfections that only you can seem...
It astounds me how much power one person has to change the world. I’m not even talking about big, will-be-recorded-in-history-books things…I’m referring to little things. The power to change one person’s world, a family, my world. Like a whirlwind of anger, she selfishly tears apart my family leaving behind a path of emotion. Content little houses are ripped apart and...
Things to keep my eyes open for:
cheap bookshelves acorn and thimble charms things with giraffes or elephants picture frames Piccadilly notebooks used book stores shooting stars
I always wanted to take pictures like this →
Creativity & Imagination
I think it’s important that as we get older, we continue to keep our imagination flowing. I think creativity is what propels us forward; it enables us to dream of new books, ideas, architecture, anything! I will admit that in the last few hectic years of high school, I did less thinking, and more following. I listened to what my teachers had to say and more or less accepted what they taught...
Things I have come to realize about myself this summer: - I am a messy eater. - I am not short. - I like doing crafty things. - I love museums, libraries, and the beach. - I am very impatient. - I really enjoy finding quotes in books that I can relate to - I love lists - I love books. - I dream big. - I am a very lucky girl.
It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our...– -Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Dumbledore always says the smartest things.
Currently reading: Frankenstein The Bell Jar Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Today I got a phone call from my sister. She was at the airport in Texas, and was on her way to Trinidad. My family went out to lunch with my auntie who I have not seen for a very long while. In the afternoon I went out on an adventure with my little sister to find the perfect black notebook. I purchased a...
Being a writer is really all about the moleskins.– -Kathy Li This made me laugh SO hard.
I want to create works of art, whether it be through word, photography, paint, or streaking arcs and lines of graphite etched on paper. I am filled with this aching desire to inspire others; a want for beauty to flow from my fingertips. I am filled with such a longing… Sometimes I think that humans are nothing more than vessels of wants and needs searching the earth for others who can...
a kiss →
When I was in Portland last summer I went to Powell’s bookstore and bought my little sister a lovely illustrated version of Peter Pan. I didn’t think to get one for myself, but now I wish I had. My heart fluttered a bit when I saw this. Unfortunately I’ll never be able to have it, it’s far too expensive. Perhaps I shall look for a few charms to string on silver necklaces...
Getty museum with my best friends, and a picnic on the grass with a view of Los Angeles splayed out before us. Coming home baking mini cheesecakes and playing with Jelly. After they leave, driving to a used bookstore and navigating through the aisles; finding treasures on wooden shelves.
sitting pretty, sitting still
That last picture I posted up was from the freshome website, and after finding that lovely photo I decided to peruse their site some more. I was shown picture after picture of stark, minimalist rooms where every piece of furniture matched with the other. While I can understand the appeal of such designs, I don’t think I could ever be truly comfortable in a home like that. I’d be much...
I felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving...– -Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
Several years ago, my older sister had a job which involved her going away to Indonesia for several weeks to do some research. Shortly after hearing about her trip, she completed the six hour drive from El Cerrito to our house and arrived with a few surprises. You see, at the time she had some pets that we needed to take care of for her while she was gone, namely: two cornsnakes, two rainbow...
Tomorrow I plan on making: 3 cheese tortellini for Friday Chocolate Chip Cookies for home & Friday Mango Sticky Rice Sometime in the near future I plan on making: Zucchini Bread for the family Avocado Chocolate Pudding Crust-less spinach quiche Baked Maple Salmon Salmon & Avocado Wraps Corn & Zucchini Pizza w. Lime and Cilantro Mango Salsa Carrot Cake Zucchini Brownies I...
trying to remember
I had this really good salad at the Santa Monica pier, and I’m trying to remember what was in it: Pear & Berry Salad from Bubba Gump Shrimp Sliced pears Strawberries…quartered? Candied walnuts Raspberries mixed greens crumbled cheese, it might have been feta sliced chicken it was served with a raspberry vinaigrette, which I went without I’m pretty sure that was it…it...
That’s why I find racism so curious. There are so many reasons to dislike...– Shalom Auslander, This American Life (via molls)
I don’t care about Harry Potter and his half blood prince, or his goblet...– -Tara Aquino
My week Sunday: Ashkaun’s Going Away Not-Party. Biking, Shuffling, Best Buy, Movies. Boys came to my house & we played Cranium Monday: Salsa dancing lesson with Byron & Adam Tuesday: Los Angeles with Gary. Breakfast at Philippes, Olvera Street, Fugetsu Do & Chocolate Mochi, Bradbury Building, Pershing Square, Central Market, Central Library, LACMA! Friday: Getty Museum w. Becky...
Things I’m looking Forward To: Wednesday - Los Angeles with Gary. Breakfast at Philippes’, Little Tokyo, Bradbury building, LACMA Friday - Getty with Becky & Patty. Looking at art, and then having a picnic on the grounds. Yay! Note to self: Charge camera. Twisted herb & garlic breadsticks Pasta shells & spinach? Chocolate chip cookies or black & white cupcakes.